Real Talk: Endings & Beginnings

endings & beginnings

It dawned on me a while back as I was sitting at my computer typing... I resented an inanimate object.

I resented the passion project that I had been working on for the past three years. The resentment had been stewing inside me for a while. I had been feeling it in my soul.

A lack of my usual adoration for creating. A lack of excitement about writing posts. A lack of joy when thinking about what was on the horizon.

Somewhere along the way the "fun" and the "passion" turned into resentment. How the hell did that happen? How on earth had I let it get here?

As it turns out having a side hustle isn't all fun and games. It isn't all rainbows and sunshine. It is, in fact, a lot of work. Especially after a day job. Especially when you add in all of the things that we are all trying to juggle all of the time. Work. Friends. Family. Significant other. Self. It's draining.

Sometimes, if you let it simmer under the surface, this can add up to resentment. Which is exactly where I found myself. 

Then you're up sh*t creek without a paddle and you have to find a way to salvage it. Really, you want a way to salvage it.

So, what do you do?

As much as I wanted to find my way back to loving TSL, the bond we once had (the creative contract, if you will) had run its course. Instead of fighting and clawing my way back to it knowing that it would never be quite right I have chosen to jump feet first into something new - that something is what you are reading right now, In Unrelated News. 

Yes, I am scared, starting something completely new is no joke. More than scared, I am excited. I am refueled. I am fizzing with energy about all of the growth and ideas that are possible moving forward. 

I hope you'll join me for this part of the ride. I'd be honored to have you.